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I told a Hasidic rabbi I had been drinking God, while playing piano and worshipping while living in a temple (and church before that).   He said "You were DRINKING GOD? COME TALK TO ME!"



We all need to feed our spirit. It uplifts us.  It heals us.  Feeding our spirit heals our emotions and bodies. When our spirit is sick, our emotions and bodies suffer. 


The Kingdom of heaven is not meat and drink, but righteousness, peace & joy in the Holy Ghost. Romans 14:17




I lived in a church for 2 years, worshipping alone at night.




Worship is Spiritual Food.  I felt like I was being fed through my chest.  It strengthens our spirit and heals us, fills us with love.


Everyone needs to feed their spirit.




God poured out His Spirit with power on me and healed me & gave me a loud singing voice I did not previously have.




When I thanked God for a loud voice, my voice got instantly louder.




As I prayed for God to pour out his love on others, it came to me & filled me. When we pray for others, we pray the same things onto ourselves.




The pastor of the church I lived in used to stand in the worship service with one hand out, palm up, and the other over his heart.  He was ‘feeding’ himself from the Holy Spirit. The same experience I had.




I lived in a temple for a fall & winter, playing the piano at night and praying for Jews.   I told a rabbi that I was ‘drinking God’.  He said “you were drinking God? Come talk to me”.






I have also had the same experience of being fed through my chest by listening to someone preach.  God’s word is spiritual food. When we hear it, it is an impartation.




This is why Jesus said




it is written, Man shall not live by bread alone,  but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” Matthew 4:4




Jesus was the Word.




There are 3 that bear record in Heaven, the Father, Word & Holy Spirit, and these three are one. 1 John 5:7




This describes the Trinity.




The gospel of John says




in the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God” John 1:1




And the word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld his glory, as of the only begotten of the father, full of grace and truth. John 1:14




The law came by Moses, but grace and truth come by Jesus Christ. John 1:17




Jesus said:




For the bread of God is he which cometh down from heaven, and giveth life unto the world. John 6:33




I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst. John 6:35




And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life, and I will raise him up at the last day. John 6:40




The bible is a supernatural book. The Holy Spirit rests on it and feeds our mind and our spirit when we read it. This is the purpose of reading it regularly.  Not just to know something, but also to experience the impartation of the Holy Spirit as we read it.




All books transmit the Spirits that inspired them. The word ‘inspiration’ means “a spirit goes into it’.




Other books transmit spirits to our mind or emotions, which affects our thoughts or emotions. They don’t feed our spirit the same way.




Words written by someone who has the Holy Spirit can impart the Holy Spirit.   If something is inspired by the Holy Spirit, it will be transmitted to whoever reads or hears it.




Same with music. If it is inspired by the Holy Spirit, it will transmit it.




This is how we can discern if something we read or listen to IS from God or not – if we feel the Holy Spirit’s presence, it is. 




Peace or a warmth in the chest is a witness of the presence of the Holy Spirit.




Jesus said,




Peace I give to you, not as the world giveth, give I to you. John 14:26




In Luke 24:32 Jesus’ disciples said




 “Did not our heart burn within us, while he talked with us by the way, and while he opened to us the scriptures?” Luke 24:32




It is important that people understand that this sensation is a GOOD thing, a witness of God’s spirit.   Apparently it’s not obvious. 




I met someone who told me that Amazing Grace was her favorite song, and her chest would get warm when she heard it or sang it, but she thought that was the devil!   




Clearly, the devil was lying to her mind, to try to rob her of any comfort that God was really with her.




This is not unusual.  People hear God speak to them all the time, in their thoughts, and do not realize it IS GOD speaking to them!   




So he is with us all the time, guiding and helping us, but many people have no clue that He exists, much less that he is really there for us.




It’s like living in the same house with one’s parents, and thinking they are some strangers, having no idea who they are.  Who are these people that talk to me all the time?  My parents. Oh.




Who is this voice that talks to me all the time?  My Heavenly father.  Oh.




The flesh is analogous to the spirit. It is symbolic of it, a manifestation of the causal level, which is spirit. Flesh is a symptom, not a cause.




Just like God gives us human parents to physically create our human bodies, to let us know there IS a creator of our bodies,  The Spirit of God created our spirit, which is our soul, inside our bodies.




The Hebrew word for Spirit and Breath are the same, RUACH.


Ruach Ha-Kodesh is Hebrew for Holy Spirit.




Genesis tells us that God formed Adam’s body from the dust, and then breathed life into him.  This was the first birthday. Man received His spirit. So he could live on the earth.




Jesus breathed on his disciples and said




“Receive ye the Holy Ghost” John 20:22 




This was the second birthday, the rebirth, where man received the Holy Spirit, so he could go to Heaven.




Jesus said




except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of  God. John 3:3






So he used the physical to make the physical body, and the spiritual force to create life, the spiritual body.




The body can not live without the spirit inside it; when the spirit leaves, it dies. 




But the spirit CAN live beyond the body, since it is the real source of life.  The spirit goes to the heavenly realm.




The apostle Paul said that in the twinkling of an eye, our bodies would go from corruptible (flesh) to incorruptible. From flesh to spirit.  In Heaven, we have glorified bodies.




Our conscience IS GOD.




God speaks in a still small voice. So it is important to be in a quiet environment to hear him.   If there is music or tv, etc, God can still override it,  but there is a higher likelihood of demons speaking to our thoughts .  There is cross-talk. And the words that God speaks, can get linked to other words that are demonic.  This can make huge problems.




Imagine if after 20 years, someone said, about their parents


 “I don’t believe these people exist.”   They would pull out their hair.




How do you think God feels?




Once a person is born again, which means being filled with the Holy Spirit, we can easily know how God feels.  He now lives inside us, and we feel what he feels. Sometimes we can’t separate our own feelings from his.   




If something grieves the Holy Spirit, we feel chest pain. So God can make it real clear that he doesn’t like something we are thinking or doing.




I have had experiences where I started weeping, and God spoke to me, saying “I’m weeping for my people”.  (He said this to me once while I was living in a synagogue, praying for Jews).




God talks to us all our lives too, and still many people don’t believe He exists.




He must pull out his hair with all the atheists who rationalize their way out of believing He exists.




The devil is behind atheism. It is one of his main devices. He doesn’t want people to believe God or he exist.




So when God communicates to us, it is the devil who will plant thoughts doubting or questioning or second-guessing.


All the rationalizations that atheists use to deny God, are just thoughts sent by the devil.




When God speaks to them in their thoughts, they think it is their own thoughts, or a hallucination (non-reality, imaginary).




Both God & the devil exist. Neither is imaginary.   If one sees evidence of one, it implies the other exists as well.




The purpose of heavy metal music, which is blatantly demonic, is to let people know that the devil DOES exist. If they believe in him, then there must be a God also.




Some people don’t look for God unless they have a reason, or a problem that needs a solution. When they ask Him for help, He reveals himself.




When God uses prophets or speaks through another person, they will often say “you’re not God, you’re just a person. That’s just your opinion”.




When he talks through nature, like storms, draughts, floods, etc, they say “that’s just nature”. These things are called “acts of God” for a reason.  They ARE. The bible is full of examples of God using the weather to give a message or to judge people. He destroyed Sodom & Gomorrah with hailstones.




I often pray for God to be on the front page of the NY Times, as a testimony to all the secular people in NY.    One day I prayed for this. That day, a pipe burst in midtown Manhattan, causing a big flood. The next day, it was on the front page of the NY Times. The caption under the picture said , “what’s next-Locusts?”




(A reference to the 10 plagues of  Passover that God did to get the Egyptian Pharoah to let the Jews Go).


God inspired whoever wrote that copy.




Another time I prayed the same prayer. The next day, on page 1 was a story about a mayor in a small town in the South who had put up a sign banning the devil.




When God uses people to do judgments as a sign of his displeasure, they say “that’s just terrorists”.  




Not knowing the bible is the problem here.  God said to the Jews through one of the prophets,




“I’m gonna use my servant Nebuchadnezzar to judge you.” They said “but he’s worse than us!”




God replied,




 “I know. I’ll deal with him later. But right now I’m using him to judge you.”




 So God uses ‘evil’ people for a purpose, often. Not always. Sometimes it is just the devil using them.




But God uses evil people for His purposes. They create problems, and this motivates people to seek God for help in response.




When God gives them sickness as a sign that they have sinned and to give them a reason to seek him for help (to develop the relationship, which is HIS goal), they often think; it’s just hereditary, genetics, random.  And they go to doctors instead of God.  They have no idea why they were sick in the first place. 




Sin often leads to sickness. One needs to repent of it in order to be healed by God. If one just treats the sickness without addressing the spiritual level, the root cause, very often the thing will re-occur or manifest in a different way, because the root issue still has not been dealt with. 




The purpose of sickness is to let us know that we are in spiritual disease, like lights on a car dashboard that something is amiss. If we don’t heed the warning, what happens?




Treating symptoms does not solve problems, except temporarily.  One needs to address root causes.




God healed me of a sexual disease when I repented of sexual sin. He spoke to me and said “GO AND SIN NO MORE or it will come back”.  




When Jesus healed people, he forgave them their sins, and also said




“GO and sin no more or a worse thing will come upon you.”  John 5:21




He did NOT give them permission to keep sinning.




Those who don’t address the spiritual level and repent of sin, are at high risk of re-occurrence of the disease. If they didn’t get the message the first time, it repeats to give them a chance to seek help on a higher level.




Jesus healed people as a testimony to who he was, the savior. 




God heals today for the same purpose – a testimony that Jesus is the savior and the bible is true.  That is the purpose.




Jesus told his disciples to heal the sick, raise the dead, cast out devils. Matthew 10:8






God’s PRIORITY is for people to be saved & born again




That is His end goal for everything that happens to us.   So problems in our lives, like sickness, relationship issues, anything, are object lessons to give us a reason to seek his help, to seek a relationship with God.




Many people have no problems, and so can’t see their NEED for God.  Hence, God gives them reasons!  Especially when others start praying for them, stuff happens that gives them a reason to call on God.




This is more common than people just hungering for God and seeking him to experience his love, which is available.  One has to actively seek it, like by going to Church or praying or reading the bible, to find it. 




But if from thence thou shalt seek the Lord thy God, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul. Deuteronomy 4:29




If one doesn’t do those things, God will give them problems, to motivate them. Sadly many people don’t turn to God even with these problems. They look in the wrong place.   When someone is sick, they think they should seek medical help.  




But in truth NOBODY dies of illness.  They die of Spiritual Ignorance. 




The Prophet Hosea said




 “my people are destroyed for lack of knowledge”. Hosea 4:6 




He meant knowledge of God, not French or math.




If they knew the truth that Jesus heals and Saves, they WOULD BE HEALED. That is the good news.  The Gospel means GOOD NEWS.  




All mental and physical illnesses are caused by demonic spirits whose assignments are the names of those diseases. Jesus rebuked them & gave his followers authority to do it.  I have done it; it works.  I have rebuked canc-, asthm-, depress-.   




These spirits also jump around through contact.  I have picked up spirits of depress-  from someone else who had it, through physical contact.  One time someone who was on anti-depressants prayed over me at a church. I left feeling suicidal, crying for no reason. His spirit had jumped on me. I called my mentor, who prayed& IT LEFT.    Another time I picked it up from someone I prayed over.  I coughed spontaneously, & it left.  Later I learned to just rebuke it.




Christopher Hitchens died of throat canc-.   Didn’t have to happen. 




After years of writing atheist books, God gave him this disease (showing him that what he was speaking was wrong) to give him a reason to reconsider, repent of his error and cry out to God for forgiveness & be healed.  God WOULD HAVE HEALED HIM! That was the whole purpose of the sickness – to get his attention that he was in severe error.




Hitchens’ description of his suffering from his treatments was hellish. God was giving him a taste of hell to try to get him to realize Hell is real, and he was in danger of going there.  In Hell, people are tormented physically by demons.




Same reason God allowed other experiences of hell, like jails, mental hospitals, wars, the holocaust.  If we saw no evidence of it on earth, people would not believe it.  There IS evidence of it so we WILL.




I saw a man on Oprah years ago, a professor who was a former atheist. He says he had a heart attack, and was being carried off and physically tormented by demons.  A voice told him “pray to God”. His response, twice, was “I don’t believe in God”.  The torment continued.  The third time, He DID pray to God, and immediately the demons left.   He was no longer an atheist.




A Christian named Bill Wiese wrote a book called 23 Minutes in Hell.  He says God took him there to testify to it.  He was in a cell, physically tormented by demons throwing him around. He sensed that something was holding them back from completely destroying him.  He says he saw people going into fires.   He says God told  him it is in the earth. The bible says this, in the book of Ezekiel.  Wiese’s book has the scriptures in the back.




I also experienced hell.  I was in solitary confinement for 8 months. It was spiritual bootcamp. God& the devil spoke to me continually.  I launched prayers & the devil used all kinds of tricks to abort them, by attacking my mind. God was training me to know these tricks & learn to resist.  When I got out, he said “use what you’ve learned.”




See my article




SPIRITUAL BOOTCAMP – my Experience in Solitary Launching Prayers






One of the biggest ironies for Hitchens is that his first name, Christopher, means CHRIST-BEARER.




Many times our given names are a sign from God of the call on our lives.




So it is apparent to me, that God’s perfect will was for him to repent and BE saved so he could testify to his conversion, like the Apostle Paul. 




Paul was formerly Saul of Tarsus who was working against the followers of Jesus. But on the road to Damascus God spoke to him and blinded him and made him the apostle to the gentiles. 




God likes to take people who are very lost, or on the wrong side, and convert them to be used for HIM.  It is a powerful testimony.




Former atheists certainly fall in this category.




Anyone with the name Christopher should consider this – you are CALLED by GOD! No question.




It’s like being born with a sign on one’s forehead.




My given name was the name of a prophetess in the Old Testament.


No accident.




Anyone who is named after a prophet in the bible; God inspired your parents to name you that because you are called by God to be a prophet.




Any such child should be given an instrument to play while very young, preferably a piano or guitar. Musicians are ALL called by God to be prophets, intercessors & healers.




Anyone called to be a prophet is probably called to be a musician. In the old testament, the musicians were prophets & travelled around in schools, prophesying.  When they played, they imparted the prophetic spirit to others.  One notable example was King Saul, who was told by someone that he would encounter a group of musicians and a new spirit would come upon him.  He did, and started prophesying. (speaking words from God).




I had a piano when I was a kid. I played it since age 4, improvising before I had lessons.  God taught me to play, by the Holy Spirit, and I believe God will do this with any child especially those called prophetically.




I remember having the thought as a kid




 “I am put on earth to do music& it’s holy”




It is important that children be given an instrument early so that God can get to them before they get corrupted, confused and derailed by their environment and those around them.




That way, the groundwork is laid so they have a stronger sense of self to resist all the false programming that comes later through education, peers, entertainment, parents & others who have their own agendas.




I believe every child should be given an instrument, early. Children are intuitive and discern spiritual things. They only start doubting it when others around them tell them to doubt it, that it is just their ‘imagination’ which is a lie. Children see angels& demons.  These are real, not imaginary.




Parents who tell them it is imaginary are not comforting them; rather they are causing them to doubt their own intuitive processes by which they discern truth.  This is the worst thing that can happen. People who doubt their own intuitions are more easily brainwashed by others.  Rather than being taught demons are imaginary, they need to be taught that Jesus name has authority over them, and to rebuke them in Jesus’ name.




See my free book  at





WHAT KIND OF MUSICIAN ARE YOU GOING TO BE? GOD’S CALL TO MUSICIANS. Musicians are called to be Prophets, Intercessors & Healers.  On Lyrics, Drugs, Mental Illness & Worship.






I know another Jewish Christian named Christopher.  




I said to him, “your whole ministry is to wear a shirt that says “whoever heard of a Jew named Christopher”  -  as a testimony to Jews!




Jews do not usually name their kids Christopher.




Hitchens’ mother was Jewish.




After he passed, God said to me, “pray for his soul”.  God still had not given up on him.   He probably was sent to purgatory.  




I prayed my mother out of purgatory by praying in tongues




God had told me to pray my mother out of purgatory, 13 years after she passed, after I became a Christian. 




She had died in unbelief, as far as I knew.  I prayed her out of there, and the Holy Spirit fell on me and I prayed in tongues until God told me it was accomplished. 




Then she spoke to me in a dream, first time in 30 years, and said to me, “I never really died”.




For testimonies of other prayers answered by praying in tongues, see




Praying & Singing in Tongues IS of God & is for all Christians



 I prayed mom out of purgatory by praying in tongues





Musicians – read this – Peace in Ireland



God used me to pray for Peace in Ireland, which resulted in the Good Friday Peace Accords in l998, by praying& singing in tongues.




I rebuked Jesse Ventura’s tsunami by praying in tongues



I rebuked a tsunami which was expected after an earthquake in Chile.


I was living with a family that had a 16 year old.  I heard about the big earthquake and that they anticipated a tsunami in California.  I told the kid, and he said,




“Well, can’t God stop it?”


I thought, “he’s right. “  I went outside to pray.




I rebuked the tsunami.  The Holy Spirit fell on me with power. I spontaneously started praying in tongues. (When the power falls, this is what happens. It means God is obviously moving on the prayer.) 




I prayed in tongues for 20 minutes, until God said “it is accomplished”.  It was cancelled. 




Praying in tongues is the mechanism by which the prayers get answered. Many prayers require praying in tongues to get answered. It empowers the angels to do things, too.




Jesse Ventura, former Minnesota governor, and host of an important show on tv that exposed conspiracies which are all true, Conspiracy Theory with Jesse Ventura, was in Mexico then and said he went to the beach to wait for it to surf on it.  Didn’t happen. Sorry Jesse!




People who commit sexual sin often get sexual diseases.  The type of disease is often related to the type of sin. It is a hint of what the problem is.




Many people wrote about how Hitchens was such a clever writer.  Big deal.  What matters is the truth, not being clever for its own sake.  That is just arrogance.    He was more interested in being right or being clever than knowing the truth.  A dangerous priority.




The main problem Hitchens & many atheists have is that they are arrogant.   




The bible WARNS US explicitly that God resists the proud and gives grace to the humble. James 4:6, 1 Peter 5:5




People who demand that God prove himself, to their satisfaction, are approaching God arrogantly and not humbly. God does NOT respond to that!  People need to understand  this!  God is NOT a dog, and he does not do tricks.




He spoke to Job and demanded of him “where were you when I made the heavens and the earth”.




If we approach God humbly and ask for Him to reveal himself in his mercy, he does.  We need to have the right attitude for him to respond.




We don’t make the rules, we didn’t create the universe, He did. 




The universe does not have to conform to human logic.   Just because something doesn’t ‘make sense’ to us, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.  It is what it is. 




There doesn’t need to be a reason why grass is green versus pink. 






Hippopotamuses, bees, birds, don’t necessarily ‘make sense’.  Maybe God created them because he enjoys being creative and likes variety.  Humans are like that, and the bible says we are created in God’s image, which means we share some of his attributes.   Children are like their parents in many ways.  So it is natural that we are like our Heavenly father in many ways as well.  It ‘makes sense’ (not that it has to).






If God sent a blimp with a big sign saying “I’m REAL- GOD”, they would say “that’s just some rich person who paid for that”.   Maybe, but they were inspired by God to do it.




Then we have the miracle of the human body.  Clearly there is design behind it. There is nothing random about it. 




Then there are all the weird coincidences.  Some really obtuse  people say “that’s just a coincidence.” Like that explains something.




The whole CONCEPT of “coincidence” is erroneous. It assumes things that appear to be linked, are not.  So they invent a word “coincidence” as a way to justify denying reality.  They think if they use this false word, it will be accepted as an explanation. Science is good at doing this evasive maneuver.    Psychiatry does it all the time.  They think that by labeling something with a scientific sounding name, it gives it credibility.  It does, to people who are easily snowed by supposed experts. But it is still nonsense.






Halfway honest people say, “HMM.   I wonder if God is doing this.”




One writer said “coincidences are the handiwork of God”.




They are probably some of the most compelling testimonies.




I have had some doozies in my life.




Years ago, God had told me to go back to Israel.  Shortly after that,  someone at my church offered to give me a free car.  I took it.  Then I went to register it.   I was at the Dept of Motor Vehicles standing on line, with one person in front of me. I heard the clerk say to him “GO TO ISRAEL”.


Then when he was done, the clerk closed the window!


I went out and sat in my car, asking “Lord was that You talking to me?”


I heard back, “Who else could do that?”




There is something in the bible called DARK SPEECH which is when God speaks to us through what seems like random comments of strangers. This is what this was.






God does NOT lie. The Holy Spirit is the spirit of truth, sent by Jesus to the earth to comfort us & guide us& teach us.







Every person has the God-given ability, in their spirit, to recognize truth. It is called intuition, gut feelings. People need to trust it. The devil throws thoughts at us to try to mislead us in our mind.




There is a lot of truth in the idea that the first thought that usually comes to us is God, and the second one, which doubts it or says “maybe something else is a better idea” is usually the devil. He tries to get us to rationalize our way out of believing God spoke to us.




God’s leadings don’t always make sense; we might not have enough information for them to MAKE sense, hence there is a natural tendency to try to figure out what He is doing or where he is leading us. But the whole nature of relationship with God is that he wants us to trust Him, since he knows much more than we do, about our situation or whatever he is leading us to be involved in. When we totally trust him, we have more peace.




Mankind has a tendency to say to him “tell me the plan, and I’ll take the next step” whereas God’s answer is “take the step by faith, and then I’ll guide you step by step. Very often, it is when we act in faith, that THEN God confirms that He is with us, rather than before.




I know of people that say God doesn’t talk to them, not realizing that their instincts, are “leadings” from God. Christians call it a leading.




God guides us through thoughts, impressions, feelings, visions, dreams, and words of others. And circumstances. Opportunities that present themselves.




Job 33 says God speaks in visions and dreams. Joel 2:28 also says this.




God talks to us in our thoughts. Our conscience is GOD.




God talks to us through the Holy Spirit which has been on earth for 2000 years, since Jesus sent it from Heaven. It is a part of God (Father, Son & Holy Spirit).




Children have the ability to perceive truth; they only get misled when others tell them not to trust it, that they are wrong. Since many children are taught to trust adults, they talk themselves out of trusting their own instincts; this is part of socialization and schooling which is obedience training and brainwashing, for the most part.




Those who resist this process are often accused of being mentally disturbed, just because they are non-conformists. Many musicians and creative people are like this.




On the other hand, God gives us parents & teachers to guide us & help us; children are not created knowing everything they need to know. God speaks to us through other people all the time, often complete strangers.




It is important to realize this, since one can miss important cues or warnings from God if we don’t realize this is the case. It has happened to me. To those who don’t yet have the Holy Spirit inside to guide them, God will absolutely use other people to speak to them prophetically.




We need to seek a relationship with God and be mindful enough to ask Him if something someone said might be from him, guiding us. Then ask for a witness that it is true.




3 manifestations of that would be:




1)  God’s peace,




2)  a brief sense of the Holy Spirit falling on us (it can seem fleeting, and one can wonder if it was just the wind, if one is outside; that used to happen to me); or




3)  an internal witness of warmth in the chest.




For a while I used to go into doorways to pray, so I could be sure that what I felt was the Holy Spirit and not the wind.




Finally I said to God, “I need an internal witness of your spirit, so I can tell outside if something is of you.”




Once a person is born again, with the Holy Spirit living inside them they will often get a witness of warmth as a positive witness, or chest pain as a witness that something grieves God. This is how we can discern how God feels about something. We feel what HE feels. People who aren’t born again don’t have the Holy Spirit inside yet, and so are often in complete error in knowing what God feels about something.






When we reflect on our lives, it can become evident that God has sent many people to warn us or guide us. Once one understands that God does this, one can reflect back and remember instances in our lives where He was clearly leading us. He is closer to everyone than many people realize.




A Foolproof Test that Proves God Exists – an exercise that shows He is in your life



First, go to a quiet place.  God speaks to us in our thoughts and we need to be somewhere where we can easily hear him and not give openings to demons to speak to our thoughts instead, by having music or tv, etc. around. Noise can drown out the voice of God.




The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth, and can bring all things to remembrance to us.  He knows everything and can tell us whatever we need to know.




All anyone has to do is think of the mistakes they have made in their lives.  Life is full of them; we all make them. It is how we learn.




Ask God to remind you of your mistakes.   Make a list.




Then Ask him to remind you of the ways he used to warn you not to make them.




There are 3 ways he does this:




He talks to us directly, in our thoughts. Our conscience is God.


So the first thing he would use would be our own conscience.




The second would be through other people.  If we don’t listen to our conscience, God will send someone else to tell us.  Often more than one, the same thing.  Think!    Before you made that choice, did somebody tell you not to?




The third thing is by circumstances; he can create hindrances or obstructions to the thing we are trying to do, because it is not His will or is a bad idea.  Like, you’re trying to go somewhere, and the car doesn’t work.




As I wrote my initial book Manual for Transformational Healing-God’s Answer to Psychiatry,  which God had me write to expose atheistic psychiatry & their genocide by drugs, He would use the computer to correct me if I was saying something wrong;  it would go goofy on me and give me error messages.  Pretty obvious.  Other times I hear him say ‘don’t write that’.




One time I was writing something on the computer.  God spoke to me and told me to take the kid next door to church.   I said “but I’m right in the middle of this!”    The next thing that happened, smoke came out of  the computer.  God meant business.  He has his priorities.




After contemplating the mistakes, then ask yourself, was there a judgment that FOLLOWED this mistake?  That was also a message from God to say, see, it was a mistake, as an object lesson and a warning not to repeat it. 




Like sexual sin.  It leads to disease.  We can be healed when we repent of the sin.   I had slept with two people in one weekend and got a sexual disease.  One was my boyfriend (who lived with someone else) and the other was someone I had just met.  The next day, I had this huge outbreak of her--.  Pretty obvious connection.




Later, after being saved, I repented of sleeping with both of them.  Heat went through my body and God said to me “don’t do it again or it will come back”. 




Jesus also said, when he healed people,




go and sin no more, or a worse thing will come upon you.” John 5:14.




So this was scriptural.  Healing is conditional on repentance from sin, turning from it.




Now look at your list of mistakes.








Nobody hasn’t made mistakes. And I seriously doubt that everyone hasn’t been warned, one way or the other.




This is your personal proof that God exists - the testimony of your own life.





How God Guides Us into Relationship with Him



This is a testimony of  how God used strangers to give me guidance, messages of somewhere he wanted me.  Because I missed the original cue, He had to use alternate plans.   It was all designed to lead me to meet Christians, go to church, get saved& be discipled.




I wanted to move to a particular city.  I felt peace there as I rode my bike there.  Later, I realized that I felt peace there because God was calling me there.  Feeling peace is often a sign that we are where God wants us, or doing what he wants us to do.  It is a sign of his presence.




I met a stranger there one night who told me, after I said I wanted to move there,  to go to a particular green house.




When I asked why, He said “I have no idea”.   I went there, knocked on the door and nobody answered.  I kept walking. There was a parking lot and then another apartment building. The super was in front, & I asked if he had an apt. He did. I moved in.  Lived there 12 years.  




10 years after having moved there, a relative gave me a car.




Now I needed a parking spot.  It turned out the people who owned the lot next door also owned the green house, so I met them. The guy was a Christian,&   invited me to his church.  I remember asking him, “do they talk in tongues in your church?” I had heard about it & was interested in anything strange. He said yes.  It was a Pentecostal church. Pentecostals pray in tongues.




But it took me a year to go there, because I kept getting distracted by the relationship I was in (by the devil).   The guy should have just invited me to chat in his apartment, become my friend. That would have helped.




He kept inviting me to the church. Finally I went.




I prayed for a teacher, and God sent a Russian Pentecostal who had come to the US for religious freedom, to his church, who then moved into the house. I used to visit both of them every night, reading the bible and praying. The Russian had a peace around him that was palpable, and magnetic. I wanted to know how he got it; it was his relationship with God& Jesus. He had a holiness and gentleness that was like being with Jesus.




During the interim time, before I met them, I had been reading new age books for 10 years and gotten into an emotionally painful sinful sexual relationship that would have been better to avoid.   ( a love triangle).




One day, while visiting them, I had the thought,  “Gee, I was supposed to meet them 10 years ago”. 




Then God spoke to me and said “you didn’t have to go through all that”.




This meant,  if  I had obeyed his original directive exactly, moving into the house that he had said, not next door, I would have avoided all that and gotten saved 10 years earlier!  Because I missed the original cue, he had  used plan B!




In addition, it had taken me a year to actually visit this guy’s church. God often uses 2 witnesses to tell us something.




Because I was involved in new age things,  God sent someone to meet me there. 




I was marketing tapes of my music& stories at a new age fair. Someone met me who was an artist, and took my tape to his mother, who was also an artist, who designed a cover for me, for free.




This was the first time someone had done something like this for free; it was because she was a Christian. So we became friends, and she suggested I visit another church that her other son went to. It was the Vineyard Christian Fellowship. I went to a house church prayer meeting where the worship was so powerful that a Spirit of love went flooding through me as they worshipped Jesus. There was a heavenly glow on their faces& I remember noting that nobody there had bad skin.




At the end of the meeting people prayed over me for God to show me who Jesus was, and I immediately had visions of him.




Then I asked God to tell me if it was true Jesus was the messiah. I had a dream where I was shown 2 scriptures, Jeremiah 31:31& Zech 12-14.




Jeremiah 31:31 says God will make a new covenant with the Jews, not like the one they broke when he took them out of Egypt, and he will forgive their sins.




A Jewish Christian came to visit me one day and prayed over me, and I felt a tingly energy on me. I said “what’s that?” She said “the Holy Spirit”.






God will use many messengers as a confirmation of something.




Some people have said they asked God to let them know if he was real, But God didn’t answer. But then they tell me that they met someone who was a Christian. This WAS God’s answer. He sends people to be witnesses and teach us about who he is. Often he talks to us in our thoughts, but a lot of people don’t realize he IS talking to us in our thoughts.




The moral of this story is, if someone invites you to church, it is not random, it is God using them to direct you!




God speaks in 2’s and 3’s as a confirmation of something, often. Sometimes the thing clicks the second or third time. We go, “hmm, I wonder if that’s God…






God says in Deuteronomy 4:29


“If you seek me with your heart and soul and mind, you’ll find me.”




Proverbs 8:17 says “I love those that love me, and those that seek me early shall find me.”




“Seek ye first the kingdom of God& his righteousness and all else will be provided.” Matthew 6:33




I had powerful encounters with God at the Vineyard, because the worship was very anointed and invoked His spirit in a powerful way. Their music is used in many churches and has revolutionized worship over the last 25 years.




You can listen to their music on youtube.  See links below.




Bob Dylan also got saved through the Vineyard. They are a charismatic church that  believes in tongues, & healing.




Charismatic & Pentecostal churches believe in tongues, & practice it.




I have been praying in tongues for 22 years, since I got baptized.




Go to a Pentecostal or charismatic church – that is where the power of God is. You will meet people who have testimonies of having been healed, & having prayers answered.  They believe in the literal truth of the bible. 




The mainline churches don’t take the bible literally, hence God does not move with power in those places, and they don’t have the same kinds of testimonies of healings & God answering their prayers, since they don’t preach the truth. When people lie about God’s word, it grieves his Spirit. It is sin.




Hence, he does not pour his Spirit out in those places. It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.




They need to repent of their error in order for him to do so.






Taking the Bible literally – why I DO



Jesus said




the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life. John 6:63




I am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. John 14:6




Jesus said




“Abide in me and I in you  John 15;4


meaning, if we read God’s word, His spirit will come to us.




if ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.” John 15:7




It is God’s Will for all to be saved& born again.


Born again means being filled with the Holy Spirit.





How to be Healed, Saved & Born again (Jesus Heals)



Bible Translations – only the King James is Good



Praying & Singing in Tongues IS of God & is for all Christians



Do you believe God speaks to you? He DOES in your thoughts




Your name is often a sign of the call on your life by God! Everyone has a calling







The importance of Prayer & Fasting & Sanctification (no drugs)



ADVENTURES IN PRAYER – testimony of a prophet/intercessor


My very strange life  Nobody can be an atheist after reading this. Book in progress


You can listen to original worship on my website on my music samples page









on youtube with lyrics:



All instruments done on Yamaha PSR 363 electric piano (sax, bass, drums)



Chorus is:


Heal Us Save Us Let Us Be Restored


Heal Us Save Us Jesus You Are Lord




Ask in F



 on youtube with lyrics:


All instruments done on Yamaha PSR 363 electric piano (sax, bass, drums)








Let us all live together in peace & one accord


Let us all live forever in heaven with the Lord










Glorify Your Name






Restoration songs – a prayer



I sing in tongues on it. You can feel God’s peace.



On youtube with lyrics:




Praying & Singing in Tongues IS of God & is for all Christians


How to be Healed, Saved & Born again (Jesus heals)